Yeah, About Those Goals
I often talk big and make ideal statements. I lay out how I should be living based on what I read in the Bible. I write this blog where I discuss where faith and life meet each other in our lives.
The problem is that I have a problem living out what I write and say. I write and talk about how I want things to be and how they should be. Living them out? That’s another story.
One of those areas is my prayer life. If you have been reading me for a while then you probably know that one of my favorite verse is Psalm 37:4. Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.
My assumption has always been that if I pursue Him, my desires will flow from Him. The problem is whether or not I actually believe that on a daily basis.
Do I really pursue Him and delight in Him, so that my desires will flow from Him and I will desire what He desires. Rather than to be or not to be, that is the question.
I wrote down some goals at the beginning of this year. Why? Because I thought that my goals, my desires, were flowing from Him.
I haven’t achieved one of those goals this year.
Now, someone could say that I haven’t worked hard enough at those goals. I haven’t put in the effort. Maybe that’s so. But maybe, just maybe, those goals didn’t come from Him, but they only came from me.
They weren’t bad goals. They just weren’t, as I now believe, streaming from His fountain.
So, if you read my goals that I listed out at the beginning of 2012 or if you go back and read them, they’re scrapped. I have thrown them on the heap of my desires.
I have one goal right now. Pursuing Him. Filling up on Him. Asking Him to make His desires my desires.
Do I still have desires and goals? Yes. But I don’t want to pursue them. I’m taking them to Him. I’m laying them at His throne.
I’m asking Him to fill me up with the desires He has for me. I’m asking Him to give me my goals.
I don’t expect a list of 10 things He wants me to pursue over the next one, three and five years.
Here’s what I expect. I expect that He wants to be my number one. If that’s the case, then I think anything else I do will correspond with that.
I don’t think it’s any harder than that.